By: Aynsley Sowder

I’ve been trying to understand how I feel about our situation since we found out that North Carolina’s public schools would be closing on March 14th. You would think that because I am the one feeling these things, it would be easy for me to decipher and pick apart and understand my emotions. But strangely, it isn’t – I haven’t been able to tell what stance I’m taking on this. I know that a lot of people are excited about not having to go to school, and others are crushed about losing the end of their school year. As an underclassman – a junior – I feel like I’m stuck in limbo. I wouldn’t put myself on one end of the spectrum, where I’m pumped about not having to wake up early and go to class, like a freshman may be. But I also would not say that I’m crushed about losing the last months of my high school experience, like seniors are. 

As I’ve spoken to friends and acquaintances, as I’ve scrolled through Instagram and Twitter, and as I’ve listened to what those around me say, I’m realizing that I’m not alone in this. There is so much uncertainty in the world right now, it’s fair to say that you and I probably have the same dilemma: our doubt. To be candid, the end of our situation is unforeseeable. Whether this gives us the time to come to a conclusion about how we feel, or whether it raises more questions, is unclear. 

I guess what I’m saying here is this: to all the underclassmen, it is okay not to know how you’re feeling. It is completely valid to be scared about what the future holds. And it is okay to talk about these things. The biggest power we have right now is the strength of our community. Reach out to your friends and family. Check up on that person you haven’t seen in a while, and reassure your seniors. As you are alone in your houses, come together in your hearts. We will get through this together! Stay safe and healthy!

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